Late Page (Also Why I Hate My Job)on September 2, 2011 at 01:25
I was just posting to say updates are going to be a little slow coming for a couple of weeks. I have a new page in the works, I’m not on a hiatus, I just need to focus my artistic attention toward putting together a graphic design portfolio to get a new job.
It’s kind of a long story that I sort of need to get off of my chest . . . As some of you know, I work at a bakery at a casino (casinos are generally not well known for being the most feminist establishments in existence). It’s a job I hate and I’ve been looking for another job since February, but to no avail. I’ve also been looking for other crappy jobs to replace my currently crappy job which I see now is no help.
Last Monday this all came to a head when I was sexually assaulted while I was closing the bakery at work. I’m okay. Just more angry than anything else.
There was this dishwasher who I know has had a crush on me for most of the time I’ve worked there (about a year). He has tried to chat me up on various occasions. At the time I was flattered, but am currently in a relationship with someone and have been for almost six years. This particular individual only speaks Spanish and is roughly my dad’s age. I’m normally a rather assertive individual and have no problem turning someone down if I’m not interested in them. I always do my best to be as polite and discreet as possible, even. If things go badly, I also have no problem telling someone off and arguing with them. However if neither I nor the person in question speaks the same language, that tends to complicate things a bit.
So he had tried to approach me and speak to me on various occasions, it made me uncomfortable but I couldn’t bring myself to be rude to him. It also seemed like a dick move to report someone for just talking to me so I didn’t. Also a friend of mine had reported someone for sexual harassment not to long before, and they didn’t do anything about it. They even made it out to be her fault. Keeping all this in mind, I just avoided him the best I could.
He kept trying to get me to meet in the back of the restaurant with him in private so I decided to have a friend of mine who spoke Spanish teach me how to say I had a boyfriend in Spanish (figuring he’d be more likely to leave me alone if I said I had a boyfriend). One day this guy followed me into the back as I was leaving. I told him I had a boyfriend in his language, he showed me his wedding ring and informed me I was “very pretty” in English. I slipped away and continued avoiding him. This was several months ago.
And then last Monday happened. I was closing and completely alone. It was a really busy night, so I was in the back kind of late cleaning up. He was in the back also on trash duty. I tried to do my thing and get out of there as fast as possible. I passed him, he stopped me and said something in Spanish and reached out and touched my boob and then said something I can only interpret as a compliment to my chest. I turned around to sign out and leave. He then cornered me and proceeded to start feeling me up. I kept saying no, raising my voice each time. He just said “Si”. He then went in for a kiss, I turned my head away but he still planted one on my neck.
It was then that I managed to shove past him. He held on to my wrist so I had to pull away. I made a beeline to my car. I was so upset I forgot to turn on my headlights and was pulled over by a cop who I think took pity on me and let me off with a warning.
I reported him after that and I thought he was going to get fired. HR investigated and informed me this week that there’s no proof that it happened and they’re letting him come back. Also that it’s my fault for not reporting it sooner. The thing is this is the exact reason I never said anything before. They’ve had a history of not doing anything about it. I was afraid of reporting him, them not doing anything, and having him pissed off. Now I have to deal with whether or not he’s going to retaliate. I have friends walk me to my car at night while making sure no one follows me home. I’m now nervous to close by myself and don’t like being alone at work. Basically I just don’t feel safe.
I would love for nothing more than to be able to make a living off of this comic. I want to stay home and work on this and some other projects I don’t have time for at this particular moment. Then the only person around to grope me would be my girlfriend and that’s okay.
But anyway, I am currently putting a graphic design portfolio together in order to find a new, better job. I need to get out of this job.
I’m also working on ideas for t-shirts which I plan to sell on my own. I’ll post more on that as it progresses.
Also if you are looking for cheap commissions, here’s a personal project of mine for you to check out:
Project: Faces by *bratkitty on deviantART
I was looking for a way to practice different faces while making a little extra cash on the side.
As I said, I’m not on hiatus. I’m just going to take a bit longer getting the new page up is all.